September 2010
Awful Day...
Today was an awful day full. I got my hopes up that Chase would come. He didn’t. I got upset. I cried because I realized how unhappy I am to get so upset over something small like that. I cried for an hour, took a nap, and cried more. I overreacted totally. Then he called me late, we talked and argued for two hours until I felt better, then he called me again and we got into another fight...
i feel better about everything with chase. i need to remember that he loves me, and everything he says to me is just to make me a better person. even if it makes me mad. which is what i love about him, hes not afraid to tell me how it is. even though im sure i make it hard for him to tell me that stuff due to my overactive dead ducts.
i feel better tonight. going to bed happy.
My Flickr →
just a place where im going to post pictures i find and enjoy. i’ll probably post a few that i take myself in the future. i used to have another site for that, but im going to try flickr out instead. some photos are already up.
Tuesday, September 28th
i can’t believe it’s only tuesday. i wonder if chase is going to come see me tomorrow. he said he will, but i’m not going to remind him. if he remembers, he remembers. if he doesnt, he doesnt. i doubt he will, it would just be nice if he did. with flowers. if he showed up here on wednesday without me asking or reminding him, with flowers, i would be all set for a long time.
guys...
it’s very rainy and gross outside today, it really makes me miss summer. it’s defiantly a lay in bed surrounded by blankets and pillows sort of day. it’s the sort of day where all i want to do is cuddle with chase and watch movies, but he left early this morning and i won’t see him until saturday. i hate waking up early to say bye. it’s the worst. i hate mondays. i’m not looking forward to...
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could have, would’ve happened or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.” -Tupac Shakur
A Jumble of Thoughts… Today I saw the quote “I would like to believe the best of me is something I have yet to see, because working at dead end jobs and skipping class and spending hours on my ass just doesn’t sound like any fun to me.” And now my mind wont shut up, so I’m writing it all down. It wont be understandable, I’m sure. But I don’t care. I...
